Today was Logans last day of being 4!!
SORRY FOR THE OVERLOAD ON PICTURES: HERES SOME PICTURES THAT SHOW WHAT BEING 4 LOOKED LIKE FOR LOGAN
And as I'm sitting here I think back on this day 5 years ago...in labor...about discussing our options as labor had stopped much earlier...the doctor saying that it was time to consider a c-section. Complete fear coming over me not knowing what to expect but fully knowing that all I wanted was to bring my baby boy into this world and for him to be healthy and safe in my arms after 8 months of growing in my belly, feeling those kicks and cartwheels in my belly....putting my complete trust in God it was time to move forward, time for the epidural, time to prep for surgery, the surgery that would lead to us meeting Logan for the very first time. Now lets fast forward 4 years....
When this year began for him I wanted to be sure that it was one that was filled with lots of fun, adventure, lessons and memories for all of us. As I look back on this past year I think we were absolutely able to achieve that and give Logan an amazing year being 4!
This year was a bit of a transition for me with a new job that came with a whole new schedule…this now opened up Wednesdays which had now become our day. A day literally dedicated to Logan. We have been able to explore our city, visit cool play places, libraries, parks, trips to the zoo, museums, and countless other activates that we were able to enjoy together. Seeing him play and explore made me realize just how important it is to take time aside to be with him and to give him the chance to just be a kid.
Time literally flies once you have kids and it doesn’t seem to ever slow down, we are constantly on the go and always having something to do and sure it can seem a bit nuts that we always have something planned but in my mind that isn’t such a bad thing. Why waste a beautiful day inside doing nothing why not be outside or trying something new. As a working mom time with Logan really is something special and I don’t want to waste that, I want to be able to take advantage of whatever time I get with him, cause guys kindergarten starts in the fall and then that’s it mommy & Logan Wednesdays are coming to an end…at least until we find another day to make our own.
This year logan has really grown into an amazing little man. He’s such a smart little boy, listening to everything we say, picking up concepts that still surprise me. Just the other day he grabbed a post-it and ran into his room a few minutes later he comes back and goes “here mom, look what I learned…” this 4 year old boy who for the longest time was hesitant to do practice any writing at all has come down from his room having written his whole name, all by himself!! He’s become so creative with a box of spare Lego pieces he can sit and build and build and build till it bed time comes around. His mind so filled with imagination and so ready to create! He’s got his numbers down solid….his memory is on point as well basically don’t make a promise to this child you can’t keep! Logan’s also my little perfectionist, he is the most detailed oriented little boy, anyone who knows him knows how attached to his halo, call of duty and Lego guys he is. No accessory can go missing, no head turned the wrong way…even the little hands have to be specific colors to be sure they look just like the picture on the box! Everything has its place, its own little ziplock bag (you’ll find them all over our house filled with all Logan’s treasures). Nothing can go missing with this kid! With each milestone and stage that we go through he continues to mature into this awesome kid & I will forever be so proud of him.
Something that this year also came with is how we as parents have learned lessons from our 4 year old. With nightly reminder to say our prayers together, days where he tells us to not worry, to be nice, not get mad. When driving and getting upset at another drivers and we let out a stressful “you stupid driver” he will quickly reprimand you for saying the bad word and will not let you live it down until you apologize! He keeps us in check! He’s taught us patience, how to love more, to have more fun, to enjoy the simple things, and to appreciate all our blessings big and small. He’s taught us about kindness and how that while we’re teaching him how to be a good boy we are also learning form these lessons and they are reminders to how we should be towards each other and those around us. Something that I see as a huge accomplishment though this year is that each night as we end our day and Moe says his prayer Logan than all on his own begins to pray his good night prayer. His prayers are filled with thankfulness, with requests that God protects and keeps him healthy as well as his bunis, bunu, all his aunts and uncles, cousins and his friends. He asks that God watch over us and our family and that He continues to bless his family and him. He asks to be kept happy and to have sweet dreams and most recently to become a big brother one day. His prayers are sweet, sincere & they come from his heart. Not a night goes by without what he calls his “Dear Jesus”.
Its unbelievable how much our lives have changed over the course of these last 4 years, 4 beautiful, exciting, fun, sometimes sad (the tantrums still happen form time to time guys, no one’s perfect), blessed 4 years. That little 5lb baby boy who entered our lives a month before he was due changed our world. He’s given us so much more than I could ever begin to tell you, just the fact that God has chosen me to be his mom and has given me the gift of being able to be a mother is so overwhelming to me. I was blessed to have been able to experience a healthy pregnancy with Logan, sure we had minor bumps in the road but nothing we couldn’t get through. It’s a gift and an experience that no one can ever take away from me. Like I mentioned earlier his most recent prayer request has been what we have been praying for the last 2+ years and something we have been leaving in Gods hand because his timing is better than our own and I am so grateful that I was able to experience pregnancy once and can only hope that I would be able to again to be able to give Logan that little brother or sister one day. If Gods plan is different than my own then I have come to understand that and I am able to say that I have been blessed with an amazing little boy one who is my miracle that 20 years from now he will still be my baby and I will love him forever. I just hope that God continues to help me be the best mom I can be to him to be able to raise him to the best of my ability, to be give him the knowledge between right and wrong, to be show him how to make the right choices in life, I want him to grow up to be a Godly man, one who follows knows the truth and lives a good and right life. I want to be able to show him compassion and love, for him to understand that his dad and I will always be here for him and that we will love and support him always.
So as Logan is about to turn 5 and we start our 5th year as parents I’m ready to face new milestones, new challenges, new adventures. I’m excited and nervous that he’s starting kindergarten (FULL DAY by the way) in the fall…that he’ll hopefully get over his stubbornness and maybe wanna learn to ride a bike even if with training wheels. I’m ready to see him grown and learn and take on being 5 to the fullest! My prayer for this coming year is that Logan is blessed with a healthy year, that hes protected where ever he goes, when school starts that he is blessed with knowledge and wisdom. Most of all I pray that he knows that he is loved beyond measure.
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